I am hiding in my new office. My new job is wonderful and it is just what I want for full-time work. That is, if I want full-time work. I feel so stuck and torn right now. A simple life living with less is screaming my name. I had to return to 9-5, working for others to pay for the life I built. As I said before, the stuff I have purchased is not bringing happiness. In fact, it is making me angry, resentful, and miserable.
I want to spend more time in the outside sunshine with my daughter.
I want to feel the grass between my toes at lunchtime.
I want my body to rest when and how it wants to.
I want to be in charge of my time, no longer prisoner to a required job.
I want to take my daughter hunting for waterfalls after a leisurely hike….on a Tuesday.
I want to create and design on my Etsy shop.
I want open spaces.
I want the simple way, not the hard.
I WILL open my spaces and free myself from materialism one day. It is suffocating and I need to breathe.